back to school .

I went back to school today. it was really fun to meet everyone again.
we didn't do anything speciall but we talked and had a great time .

i'm sitting here beside the computer writing and chating and listen to shame on me by alex says. hm , earlier i did some homeworks, i study flowers name in swedish and latin. it's quite hard but it's fun to learn.

hm. i haven't message with B in a while now. i miss him but i hope i'll message with him again soon. but i don't have anything els to write now so i guess i'm out! Loui.

I'm fine.

Last time i write i diden't have any happy feelings. I were very sad and so angry. I'm sorry for writing about it and everything . but it feelt good to share it with you. I realized that I got people who loves and care about me. And i'm realy happy about that.
I wanted to thank everyone who care about me and wanted to tell you guys that I Love you.

I message with B today. he always make my happy and he always put a smile on my lips.
I realy .. never mind . And i chat with Jay . witch I think is one of the best . Love thoes guys .
But have to get ready for sleep now.
see you later crocodiles! Loui .

I wan't to ...

Commit suicide. This past days or weeks has been like hell. I can not describe my feelings right now. I've got so much going on in my life it's really complicated . I need Love , someone to talk with. about everything. like family and friends. I love my family but right now i just wanna hit them hard. And my friends they just act weird around me. I don't know were to go. I want someone to notic me, i want people to see me. It's hard . and quite sad . I HATE MY SELF!
No Love ! Loui .

Three days left.

My time in the little flower shop are soon over. it's quite sad but i'm happy to go back to school. this four weeks i've been in the shop. i've lerned so much. And it's so much fun .
On monday i'll be back at school and will meet all of my friends. don't have that much to say so i guess i'm out! Loui .

Thettes Place .

I had the greatest time ever! Me , Paco and Thette eat the yummmiest food , we laugh a lot . and watch some movies. We were out on a walk and bought some candy and buns and other yummi stuff. we got to sleep at 02.13. so i'm quite tired now . but i'm home and going to eat soon . we didn't take any pictures beacus my phone didn't got any batterys.

I haven't talk to my loved ones in malaysia. it was a couple of days ago. I miss them, sooo much! . but got to eat . Peace out ! Loui .

No Brace .

Hm . i were at the dentist today, i thougt I get my brace today but i have to wait untill febuary or march. so i have to wait . hm .
today my friend Willieeyboi came and visit me at the little flower shop i'm working in. with his friend Rickard. he's like suuuper cute . but i don't know . maybe he's something fore me and maybe not. I'll wait and see.

Tomorrow i'm going to Thette's place and sleeping there with her and Paco . It's going to be sooooo much fun , I'll tke pictures and show you guys later.

time to do dishes, gaahh , Pee&Poo! Loui .

Aku Ira Buus ?

it's time to go to bed now . Sweet dreams! Loui

My christmas wish list

It's now five weeks left to christmas. And yesterday i started to write my wish list. everything i want I just write down and then later give it to mum. I finished my list right now. I've got 20 things on my list. quite sick. but it's true. hhah. here's some things on my list : ,

2 swedish books
some clothes
a tie bow
singing lessons
gift cards
love

and some few other things.
I've start texting with H or i know someof my other friends call him B . so i don't know what to say. hah . I love to "talk" to him. he's like to cute. <3 .
But it's time for me to get ready for tomorrow . Sayonara ! Loui

HAPPY!

oh today i'm like very happy! and thats good. I'v been waiting for a message from a very special person for about 3 weeks now . and this morning i got it . there's no word that can describe how i feelt when i read the message . I hope we start talking soon .
but now i have to go . Peace out! Loui .

One week .

Next friday something is going to happen. I'm going to get brace. I'm excited but very nervous. some people i've talked with have said that it's realy painful . and that scares me. because i'm quite weak. haha. but i hope i'll be okey .

today it's friday 13th. Nothing special has happend today. but yesterday I were quite clumsy. first i falled down from the stairs, then when i came to work i mached my hand so my left hand is quite blue. haha . and later i almost broke my finger. so i don't feel that good. but i'm always okey .

Aileen's friend are sleeping here tonight. Linnea she's so cute! .

but it's time for me to go , see you later crocodiles! Loui .

New clothes .

I this weekend me and my mum were shopping . I bougth two longarmedshirts one white and one gray 200kr , a cardigan in gray 299kr , and a greenblue and white shirt 149kr. so i spent 648kr . (about 234 ringit) . I love my new clothes.

enjoy my pictures . Peace out ! Loui .

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!

Love you dad! Loui .

baby-sitter.

Leo and Jonathan are chanceing clothes now. soon they're going to sleep. but first i'm going to read i goodnight story for them. then after that i'm going to read and write a littelbit befor i'm also going to sleep. and i'll promised Tobias to play some card with him later.

I came here at 16.40. and we talked and played some games. then at 18.15 we started makeing dinner. then we watched a movie . Wall:e . I loved that movie. so cute. and all the boys liked it to. Tobias are a sweet little angel but the other two are small devils . No but they were tough, they hit each other and scream at each other . but it went vell.

but know i'm going to brush my teeths, peace out! Loui .

Amalyllis .

Amaryllis , chrismas spirits. Peace out! Loui

my friday .

This week has been crazy fun! . i've been haveing a great time at the flowershop where I have my practice. I've been doing littlebit of everything.

Today my loved one were here and ate dinner. and me and Therese and Erica talked and had a great time !. LOVE ! .

it's quite late now. i'm a littlebit tired but i'm okey. I'm sitting here and thinking about everything. i wonder how Tobias feel? . and how everyone in Malaysia feels?. if we're going to Malaysia next year?. and i'm thinking about love, what is love? . gaaaah !. need to sleep . sweet dreams ! Loui .

My plans .

Friday : dinner with family . My cousin Peter and his wife Maria and thier two daugthers Therese and Erica plus Maggie and family are comming to our house.

Saturday: baby-sitter at 16 . and i'm going to sleep there . so thats nice. It's my godmothers kids. Tobias , Leo and Jonathan.

Sunday : shoping whit mum! . I need a cardigan, new jeans and a sweater. hm , a winter jacket and some shoes. but that have to wait. haha

thats my weekend. and now it's time for me to go to my nice and comfortable bed. Sweet dreams ! . Loui .

Yesterdays work .

yesterday were great. It was my second day at the flowershop. I did a bouquet in orange and red. Then after that I did a table arrangement in purple, yellow and pink . I think it was quite ugly but we sold it so i'm happy. I started on some big dekorations for funarals . with cypress and some other leaves. it was fun and i got good kompliments about my work. so I'm happy. I also did a little plantation in a bowl and it looked really good. that was yesterday .
I wonder what I'm going to do today. I start at ten so i'm leaveing home at 09.15. so i have to get ready to leave.
see you later crocodiles! Loui .

4 months .

I started this blog 4 monts ago. I been written happy things, sad things, good things and bad things. I've been written from my heart . I love to write and to share the most things with you.

but let me tell you about my day. Today it was my first day practice. it was fun but we didn't do much. I decorate wreath . and unpack some porcelain. I hope we got much more to do tomorrow. but i don't know.

Right now i'm sitting here listen to some music and I'm thinking about some few things. especially boys . I both hate them and love them. they're crazy! . hah a . but it's CSI NY now . Pee&Poo! Loui .

november .

It's allready november. It's quite sick cause the time gose so fast.
my morning started at 8 . a went to work at 11 and and started work at 12 and fineshed at 17.
I had a hard time concentrate but I just did my thing and then went home. talked to Jay . He's my favorit right now. cause he's so nice to me. he's a really good listener and I love to talk to him. right now we talking about a special person , a person I like and jay helps me to get closer to him. bough me and jay know him . and it's nice to know that I can talk about all most everyting with him. He's a few year older then me so i gess he understands me. He's like a big brother. Thanks Jay , for being there for me. but it's time to go now, it's movie time. "the devil wears prada". Sayonara! Loui .